this is weird.

Sometimes, not everything is perfect as it should be. Then you gotta get the most of it.

Never mind. In 3 hours, I'll fly back to Sweden after 3 months, I'm sballato, and I don't feel like writing something.

I just wanna enjoy...
You should do the same...

sballato totale.

Attenzione!!!
Allora,
Io sono sballato totale.
Pronto a sorridere!

I'm Umit, from a different universe called PG. And by different, I mean, seriously it was something else.

There is the fucking catalan, when he came back from Spain with a surprise present, shouting in my home; "I got sarna mannnnn!!!"

There are always fratellinos and sorellinas in PG. And for sure, they would know how to handle life there.

When there is a fight in PG, Gods only let one fist to exist. the one by the Destroyer.

Ahhh! There is;

- Come onnnnn, Let's fuck.
- Come onnn, it's FUN.

There are neighbours in PG, sacrifice themselves in order to let you not sleep and party 24 hours, even sometimes just a 20 minute filthy action.

...
You know what they call a Quarter Pounder with Cheese in Paris?
They don't call it a Quarter Pounder with Cheese?
...

And the Goddess of PG is the Portuguese Chocolate with the eternal bracelet.

Sometimes, there may appear this guy in PG Universe, betting you a beer if you hit the top bar from mid-line in indoor soccer field, and when you hit and thought you already won, the guy shoots and hits the same bar, and your consolation is "Umit doesn't drink beer."

We have a business guy from the "heart of business" in Turkey, allowing us to be the strongest economy among all parallel universes.

Everybody has a flower, in a wine bottle, and their names on them. A sweet little girl named "Rooms" takes care of them, by not letting them pass the Círculo Polar.

If you started your PG-Day without Italian Coffee from the ORI & TIGER's shop, don't bother, it's a shitty day.

In PG, you might meet Cul'oc and foufa. Pray for this to happen.

When you say "Fuck it!" there, probably you will be warned;
No buddy, it's "Fuk it!"

In PG, there is only one Swedish girl. Her name is Jochen, I'm so sick for her gold hairs, diving into the vast deeps of the bushes.

There is another totally Swedish person. However Jochen looks more alike the majority of girls in Sweden.

When you ask a cigarette from a stranger there, likely he would answer you; "Sure man!"

Here comes and ironic one;

In every "Creep" you have to tear your vocal cords with Alejandro Cruz Moreno, otherwise he wouldn't sing the Ice Cream Man.

You never know, when you want to learn only one sentence in one language, why should it be "ulitka"?

A Greenpeace Man, and a Nuclear Physicist can live in the same house in PG, happily ever after...

You might say "Evet", you might say "Hayır". You might say "PG".

You get warnings in PG. You put them on the best places of your wall. That's what makes you legendary in this universe.

You live in a weird, but the safest country of the universe, but you live with a Baseball Bat, and sometimes 8 flat-tyre bikes.

In PG, thanks to time-differences between countries, there is always someone in the other end of the world -or just an insomniac Turkish- thinking about every single one of you.

Thou shalt never think about my mother, if I made a mistake up there, forgot something, or someone(hope not).


You would live in an odd, complex, funny, lovely universe but then, you would be lived in the best universe, having the best times in you life, which moves around parallel universes. And you would know, in every letter here, there is a connection with something. Something makes you smile whereever you are, whatever time it is. You just know, these memories are priceless, however you can buy something from Amir and you can reminisce these memories. You can even put the PG List in the background and say "I lost myself", while writing a post like this one. I want to thank the people who gave me this inspiration, this potential to think and write such thing which makes me feel off the clouds right now. You are the best guys. You are PG.

amics per sempra...

I know I write here so rare, but it's maybe better coz you are even too lazy to read these... Anyway, I don't only write here, but also some other paper spaces, so even though no one reads it, it's good for me.
I've finished the best year of my life in Lund, 4 days ago... With a lovely last day...
Of course I will miss all the friends I had there, and PG, for sure. But let's not talk about the end now, because this is only the beginning.
Me and Mike, we started from Lund, to Turkey, a train trip in approx. 22 days, and on the way I will visit awesome PG people! We wish we could visit all of you guys! Just wait a bit more and sure we will!
Here is the route for my trip. We started on sunday morning from Copenhagen and we were in Berlin in the afternoon. We had a crazy sunday (also monday morning) there with Kasha!, 2 parties from 19 till 09 in the morning, then a quick city tour and our train to Amsterdam. We came yesterday night to Amsterdam, and had a great day here. I think it's better not to share this day on internet. Don't ask me why. :P
Tomorrow, we will do a more detailed city tour, and enjoy the city more...
Next stop, is Brussels on Thursday evening, 17th June.
Wait for it Alex, gonna be awesome!
We have 2 days in Brussels, then we will go to Paris on 19th June morning and see around the city for 7 - 8 hours, then we'll take the train to Bordeaux if everything goes alright.
Here we go Gilles!!!
I cannot say that any of these cities we visit will be crazier than the others, they all have very special ways to be awesome! And Bordeaux will be for sure unique experience for us. After Bordeaux, on 23rd June morning, we will head to Barcelona.
Here comes the Fucking Catalan! A crazy roomie!!!
5 days in sweaty hot Barcelona, will take all the cold away from our bodies. We're both gonna be wasted, and at the same time, HOT!!! After all these Swedish months, I think we will love it!
On 28th morning, we will fly to Pisa, then I arrive to Florence.
Say Hi to Tendino and Francesco, another great roomie!
We are planning to stay until 1st of July there, and then we will head to Turkey. However, We are still in the process of making plans for a stop in Skopje, Macedonia. I hope we can do it too. Pray for it Ivana!!!
When we arrive to Istanbul, I know our small brains will be filled up with all these memories we've had with these awesome people all year in Lund and around Europe.
We just want to say thank you guys. You are the best.
Amics per sempra!!!

P.S.

Salasita
Catarina aka Gözde
Ico!!!
David aka Berkut
Jochen Bick
Alejandro -my psychologist =)
Aude!
Nunzia aka Tiger of Sicily
Orianina
Jenny
Korcan Kivanc
Charlotte de Monaco
Ace "Sure man"

We need to tell you guys, We are terribly sorry that we cannot visit you, but you already know in the first chance we get, we will do it! Who knows, maybe tomorrow, maybe closer than tomorrow...

Always look on the bright side of PG life.

Always look on the bright side,

It's a song by Monty Python, but it has more than that for us. Who is us ?

PG is us. PG is our family, it's our home away from home. If you know what PG is, you know how close you can get to any human being on earth.

PG, basically is the initials of the street that we lived for our time in Lund, Sweden. It stands for Parternas Gränd, but for us it stands for our friendship,our family, our perfect times in Lund.

Before I came to Sweden, like I wrote here before, I was thinking every single day, that it's going to be a great year. However, as soon as arrived here, even the very first day, I met my amics per sempra. That's something different. It's not possible to be described by any words in any language on earth.

Now, there's only a number of days left, to leave each other, and some of us even left, but we are still together here in PG. We may not see each other for a while, but it does not mean that we forget any of our members.

Guys, let me tell you something;

I love PG, and I will never ever let it slip from my mind, not one second.

See you soon, in PG.

how precise I am.

I say that, because the title of my last post like months ago, still stands for itself.
act. always.

I used to say;
think. always.

but time is changing, so is people.

For me, the time is to take some action now. The year of my life is gonna finish in 2 months, and I kinda know what's gonna happen this summer. What abour afterwards ? No frickin' idea!

We will see, of course...

I just write this post at this time of the night, because I feel like bored and totally sober, after a usual "night-out". This should be something philosophical huh?
I gotta finish it with some lyrics I memorized, and kinda fits the occasion;


It might not be the right time,
I might not be the right one,
But there's something about us I want to say;
Cause there's something between us anyway...

act.always.

I feel like a piece of shit. Not because I am, but I can easily make myself looking like that. The small, cute city of Lund was full of hopes when I arrived, and every single day I was thinking I am getting closer to make things real. Soon I realized it's not like that. It just appears to be perfect, altough it's not even close.
When I wake up, I think. Afterwards, I forget.
It wasn't meant to be like this. It wasn't.
To have what I have right now, you have to sacrifice a lot. A looooot.
What did I sacrifice ? Nothing. So I am suffering now. My world is suffering because of my weak will.
I just need to divide. Divide and conquer.
I just need the power and will to do this.
I wonder if I ever will get there. I started to have doubts, which I never had in my entire life. They are scaring me. They make me ask the question;
"What if?"
I need to move. Maybe not the biggest steps I used to take all the time, but some steps need to be taken. Otherwise, I'm gonna fall down. Fall down very hard, and I will feel pain, a lot of pain. Maybe it will be impossible to recover myself afterwards. To prevent this fall, I just need to take a trip. A trip to the inner me.
Like they say;
"Den längsta resan är resan innat."

I have the solution, from the beginning, I have it. I just need to put it into action. On the backside of my iPod, I say: "think.always."
Maybe now I should add something into that;
"act.always."

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